Plead
talk to monster and monster won't eat you.
Victims
upcoming! fun schedule equivalent :)
x Love Matters (Sunday) it's a terrible movie. =(
x The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (TBA)
x Cycling (TBA) --> I miss cycling =(
x Current Affairs Workshop (10,11,12 March)
x Thieves Market OH SO FUN! =D OWL BAG! <333
x 12 Rounds <-- hmm, boring movie? zzzzz *retches at mention of popcorn*
x Visit Objectif <-- LOMO Embassy; lomos are expensive. =(
x ARTFRIEND WAS FUN; haahs, if you consider trying not to fold a piece of turquoise tracing paper and bring it home in one piece fun.
x Knowing (Saturday)
x chalet! (13-16 April) <3333333
x X-MEN ORIGINS: WOLVERINE FOUND :D
Dramas
x Witch Yoo Hee
x ToGetHer (ai jiu zhai yi qi)
x Boys over Flowers
x Grey's Anatomy S5 WAITING S6!!
x House S5 SEASON 6 HURRY OUT!
x Gokugen 1, 2, 3
Movies
x Coraline
x Knowing
x Potter
x X-Men Origins: WOLVERINE
Sewing Machine
x fabrics purchase GOT THEM! =D
x attempts to create: jewellery tools case, purses, passport cover, lappy cozy
x BOOK COVER! COMPLETE!
Photography
x amateur photography --> kinda suck at this huh? (well, ongoing)
OHLIQ
x finish selling those ragged pieces of clothes! (can I give up already? :S)
Jasmine/A Tinge of Aquamarine
x jewellery tuning
x photography
x conceptualise
x photoshop
Cooking
x attempt to arrange/attend cooking lessons once a week with my mother CLOSE to giving up on this. :P
Fleas
x visit the theives' market at sugei road (since I FINALLY found out how to get there :) (wed) <3333333333
Fitness
x once-twice weekly jogging :) hey, relieves stress and increases metabolism! very very good. =) (or others like tennis and cycling)--> these no time. =(
x GOAL: to lose weight to below **kg :D
x dance class
x GOLF! lol.
x kayaking!
CCA stuff
x NYAA Chapter
x SPIN@TRM - NATAS
WISH LIST
x Disderi 3 Lens Camera =) --> Spreeing it! :D
x headphones? Those vintage kind! Plus won't mess my hair! (note* my head is pretty big, pls make necessary allowances. :P) --> anyone want to bring me to Jaben/Stereo?
x Jewellery Case/Box for bringing to Taipei. =)
x Maybe you can get me stuffs for my OIAP. hahas, just please, don't give me a ricecooker. -_-
x New Glasses
x Contact Lens
x Nude Heels and Gladiator Sandals!--> waiting waiting waiting!!
x Casual Blazer!--> bought! but the seller superrr slow. :(
x Robot Necklace & whale earrings!--> think I may forgo these two, whale earrings not so nice, may switch to birdie instead! Robot mahs, idk...
x Polar Bear Wire Wrap!
x Two new bags I kan shang online. Should be getting it. Except dno when she ordering also... O_O
x External Harddisk :x
leave now and monster won't eat you.
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Sometimes, I wonder. Like, is it my self-satisfaction that has caused me to become so, I don't know, passive? No no, passive is not the word I am looking for. I mean, dormant, like I don't have any requests, wishes, hopes, dreams, goals, ambitions. Okay, now I am starting to sound like the Citibank Advert. Regardless, I just feel so, incorrect? Like what is a girl of 18 feeling like she doesn't have dreams and aspirations? It is as if they have fallen asleep inside her and suddenly she has no idea what to do with her life. And, it has been there for a while now, it's just that it suddenly dawned upon me that that happened. I just could not formulate anything to ask for. I couldn't formulate any hopes I wished for. I couldn't formulate. My mind just went blank when I thought about what I wanted to do in future. I used to be so sure, so sure I wanted to pursue a career in tourism, then I started to falter and now I don't know anything anymore. Even in my own life, I mean, besides my future career, I don't even know what the hell I want to do with it. It's as if all my plans have left me (wait, I'm not even sure I had any in the first place). Okay, so maybe I'm more a free spirit who plans as she goes along. I don't exactly do long term. YET, my life is beckoning for order and some ability to foresee the future. I feel lost. I have no hopes. I have no aspirations. I have no future. Because all these asks for humans to be greedy and want what they don't need. Have I become so greed-less and contented that I no longer want anything? This is depressing. I want something. I know. But, thus far, I only see those small material things which are so insignificant. What happened to immaterial things? Bigger and more important and crucial things? I just cannot see them. I am running out of time. Rewind. Look at this from another perspective. It was the worst of times. It was the best of times. Oh god, this is still depressing. I need a motive to continue living my powerful existence. It's no wonder I'm losing my confidence.
Sometimes, I wonder. Like, is it my self-satisfaction that has caused me to become so, I don't know, passive? No no, passive is not the word I am looking for. I mean, dormant, like I don't have any requests, wishes, hopes, dreams, goals, ambitions. Okay, now I am starting to sound like the Citibank Advert. Regardless, I just feel so, incorrect? Like what is a girl of 18 feeling like she doesn't have dreams and aspirations? It is as if they have fallen asleep inside her and suddenly she has no idea what to do with her life. And, it has been there for a while now, it's just that it suddenly dawned upon me that that happened. I just could not formulate anything to ask for. I couldn't formulate any hopes I wished for. I couldn't formulate. My mind just went blank when I thought about what I wanted to do in future. I used to be so sure, so sure I wanted to pursue a career in tourism, then I started to falter and now I don't know anything anymore. Even in my own life, I mean, besides my future career, I don't even know what the hell I want to do with it. It's as if all my plans have left me (wait, I'm not even sure I had any in the first place). Okay, so maybe I'm more a free spirit who plans as she goes along. I don't exactly do long term. YET, my life is beckoning for order and some ability to foresee the future. I feel lost. I have no hopes. I have no aspirations. I have no future. Because all these asks for humans to be greedy and want what they don't need. Have I become so greed-less and contented that I no longer want anything? This is depressing. I want something. I know. But, thus far, I only see those small material things which are so insignificant. What happened to immaterial things? Bigger and more important and crucial things? I just cannot see them. I am running out of time. Rewind. Look at this from another perspective. It was the worst of times. It was the best of times. Oh god, this is still depressing. I need a motive to continue living my powerful existence. It's no wonder I'm losing my confidence.
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